I'm okay

Really, I am.

I bought a new car and that helps - not having to drive a hunk of crap while all the other soccer moms get Expeditions and Tahoes and shit. I cut down on the drinking a little and surprisingly, that helps. What else...yeah that's all. Baby steps.

I started writing a book. It'll probably never come to anything but if it does, wouldn't it be neat?

Feelin' Like A Criminal

Yeah, so.

Rock bottom, nice to meet you. I mean how badly do you have to behave to realize you have SERIOUS problems that need immediate attention? Do you need to let it get to the point that you get so drunk you throw up on the shoe of the guy you're having sex with and the guy is not even your husband?

This.

Is.

Bad.

I really, really need to figure out what I'm going to do with myself. Soon.

Uh

Sorry. I have no internet at home, I had to let my phone get shut off because I have no money. I'm trying to save for a new car since Nick crashed our only wheels, and it's not going so well what with the lawyer bills and all. We're fighting DCFS trying to keep our kids and I'm really really really not doing very well with all of it but what can you do? I'm alive, and that's all I can say today. I'm alive, and I'm really sorry if you've emailed me and I haven't answered because I have no fucking internet.